Me & My Loneniness

It’s true that we all need some time to spend with our self so that we can identify our positive and negative things but what would happen when the time is much more and we spend lots of time lonely. This article is for them who think that some part of their life they feel the “Loneliness”. I do not know how many people will read this but whatever the numbers, their inspiration always be inspiring me to write something more.

I divided this article of loneliness according to different part of our life. At first in infancy time we don’t feel lonely, because our parents, relatives and our friends accompany us deeply. So let’s start from the adolescence period. I have several good friends whom I share my good and bad feelings but there are several persons who don’t have good friends or whom they considered as a good friends after sometime they betrayed them. So from that time they are alone and getting feared to make good friend. At that time we need some life-partner (bf/gf) or good friends who can understand us well and at our bad times they stand beside us. But how many of boys are lucky to get their desired gf (girl’s plz forgive me for the Unpleasant truth)? So they are addicted with alcohols or some other drug products. Same things happen for girls also. Suppose consider a girl who don’t find a boy-friend and her friends are mostly coupled. So at that time some jealousy comes within her mind and maybe she is not able to say her feelings to her parents or her parents don’t have the opportunity to hear this in front of their daughter for their job. So she feels singleness. Same thing occur for a boy also who don’t find a job at that age but most of his friends found it. There are several examples at this period and few I have stated above. I think it is the best time when many of us feel this.

        Next comes to post-marriage life. If the husband is busy for his job and couldn’t give time to his wife then his wife feels this. For the other side, we see several relations where couples are not bonding well and most of the time they couldn’t comes to a solution. So both of them face this problem. If there exist any extramarital affair to any side then I think they understand this and many times we see they choose to end their life.

        Lastly at our old days most of the people almost enjoyed everything from their life. They don’t have the power to go here and there. Their children are busy for their job. Now we can feel the situation of an old man who had lost her wife. He doesn’t have anyone whom he shares his agony. The opposite case is quite common in our life. But in that case also several old women feel this for their family problem. Things will be doubled if the old man doesn’t have any boy and his only daughter got married to some other family. In that case most of the people go to the old age home where different people come with different problems.

        After giving this kind of examples whatever I want to say that each of us feel loneliness in some part of our life. It’s quite natural. I believe more we grow up; we will not be surrounded so many people. Just consider the numbers of friend we had in our school or college days is keep decreasing in our professional life. Our life is just like a triangle. The more you want to go to the top from the base you will observe it is matching to a point.  Some solutions are reading the story books, writing something, watching movies and gossiping with friends. I feel that there is an utter need to release the inner demons to move forward in life. We have to overcome it and keep in mind so that it could not affect in our life.

  P.S. : Please forgive me for my amateurish English. There may be some parts of grammatical errors are there. I will try to get better and better I promise... :-). Keep reading.

Diffrent situations at office

Today I will tell you two sparse situations at my office. It may not be the proper thing to share at blog, but I thought I should tell you the experiences that I faced in two different days at my office.

The first one was a story at my training time. For reader’s interest, I am mentioning that our office generally start at 9 am. On 10 am there are very few persons arrive, maximum people arrive on or after 11 am and they stay till 8 to 9 pm as we have 9 hours shift. But depends on work we even stay further. We were 7 new joiners and we were divided into two shift. First one 8am – 2pm and second one 2 pm – 8 pm. I chose the morning shift. So I have to come before 8 am. At that time I did not know the normal time of people to come at office. So within 7:45 am I reached at my office. It took 1 hour to reach to the destination in a cold winter. When I reached at the reception, the security men astonished to see me at the odd timing. As our company is a MNC company so people are working 24 hours. Generally the night shift people go home at 7 am. So when I entered the office there were very few countable people were working and some of them prepared for leaving. I was going towards my ODC(technical name of a room where I am working). There are several ODC for different jobs. In my ODC there are more than 70 people are working. After punching my identity card at the ODC’s door when I entered at our room I was surprised to see that the room was empty and dark. Only the luster of sun was coming through windows. May be it is very common to very people who come first at ODC, but for my case it is totally new. First I switched on the lights and went to my sit. There was no scream of calls, no voice of people, so it was absolutely pin drop of silence. I went out of my ODC and saw there was hardly 1 or 2 people were there at different ODC. Similarly there was some where no one present. I took a cup of coffee and went back at my sit and start working. After an hour my colleague came and some other people was coming slowly. Then it was again normal condition and ODC got back its charm.

The second one was totally contrary to first one. It was a story of late night at my ODC. I stayed till 8:30 pm before that day. But on that day 8:30 pm was just evening. At the evening I came to know that tonight we have to stay till night for some urgent work. I thought it will be maximum 11pm. All the people started leaving after 8 pm and at 9:30 pm it was only our group that means 12 people including manager. At 11 pm our manager told us to take the dinner. He had ordered mutton biriyani with chicken afgani. It was no doubt delicious food for all of us to bolster some energy for night’s work. After completing our dinner we went down at ground floor (we sit at 6^th floor) and went outside of gate for some relaxation. It was a pleasant weather with cold air blowing. After coming back we again started work. We all booked our respective car as there is a rule of our company that after 11 pm they provide you cab to reach you safety in your house. We first booked 12 am cab but as we have not finished our job so cancelled the first one and booked the 2 am cab. We finished our job at 1:30 am and went down to catch my cab. Catching cab was also the first time experience for me as I have mentioned that I did not stay till night before that. It was an ambassador and I saw that there was 4 people’s list on that car. One was at Dunlop, then me at alambazar, rest two were dakhineswar and dankuni respectively. It was one girl and we three boys and our dedicated old driver. When I entered at the car I saw that the girl was already seated and the rest two boys was standing outside of the door. I took the seat of beside driver. Our car started at 2:10 am after completing its formality and running on an empty road. I came to know that the other three people were from BPO job. So they used to return at night but for my case it was totally exciting. It took only 30 minutes to reach at Dunlop(which normally take nearly 1 hr) and the Dunlop lady took the car to her house and got down. Then it was my time. I took the car in a narrow lane thinking that it will be shortest distance to reach, but after going some distance I saw that there was a puja pandel which blocked the road. So the driver again went back and chose a different road. He and the rest two boys were become angry to me. They could not say anything but on that time I became prune to them. Driver said “you should know the information whether it was blocked or not”. At last, I reached my house ending my night journey from office.